まま。

Miserable morning.
Miserable afternoon.
Miserable evening.
Picked up a little...fell asleep.
Now at home.
Lonely, wishing I was back with him.
At least there I know what is expected of me.
Here, I will never know.
またね。
Caro

カロカロカロカッと

悲しいと時。。。日本語は難しいんですけど。
べんきょします！
カロはとても悪いです！
おにいです。www
I am feeling melancholy and morose again.
I realise how much what people say affects me.
Not to say it's good thing or a bad...granted I feel it's mostly bad.
I also keep forgetting to mail out my packages for the holidays.
I still have a few halloween cards lost in the mix of my room.
Some presents for the new holidays...I haven't even started working on..
But I know this because I am hiding away, and spending too much time playing on line..
I should be drawing the designs I keep dreaming up.
I should be working on the paintings people asked for as gifts.
I should be figuring out how to pay for school.
I have a lot of things I should be doing so I could go on but .. I'm sure you see my point.
Sigh, I dunno.
Sometimes I wonder if I should really bother these days.
Anywhoie,
I have some big news.
Maybe I'll post it in a little bit. We'll see.
Hope you guys are doing well; populous of the interweb。
またね！
Caro

LA/New Elements.

こんにちわ,
ただいま！おひさしぶりね〜
I have added a couple of new elements to the blog to make it easier for those of you who reads this to keep in touch.
Also!
I'm in LA. I leave tomorrow. I came to visit Fashion Institute of Design and Merchandise.
Another school I'm applying too.
They have quite a few locations, anyone interested in Fashion, Production, Merchandising; should check it out. :)
Anyway, I leave tomorrow. I have to be at the airport early so I hope kaomonsuta doesn't oversleep! D=
I'm excited to see my man again finally <3
My family too!
I've missed everyone!
Anywho I hope we can go play today!
またね〜

LAX

I am on my way to the PHX aeroport. CamCat says I shouldn't eat the peanuts because they hate me! D= What a sad day! But it's gonna be such a long time without my husbando ;_;! Ok time to plan my questions for FIDM andandand my tummy aches! @_@ Post more soooon playtime is sooon kao won't wake upppp I miss my maanananannnnn ;____;

If.

Someone could explain to me our reason for being alive..
I'd really appreciate it right now.
I'm desperate for change and I think I'm going to behave drastically.

I'm hurt.
I'm alone.
I'm uninterested in this anymore.
I can't do this anymore.
I no longer even know what this is.

Hello.

Today hangs a heavy heart.
Blogging seems like something too open for people to be spilling their emotions on.
But I guess that was always the whole point?


I wish for one night I could sleep,
and I wouldn't wake up until things were..

I wish for one night I could just sleep...

Just sleep...







Do we have to wake up?

Panama Day 2.

こん！
Day 2.
Night has fallen.
Went to Romanaccios yesterday.
Ate clams...should I feel bad? Is that against vegetarianism...I keep getting mixed responses.
Oh well it's been seven years since I've had them so I suppose I didn't do too badly.
Also ate Spaghetti and the best garlic bread on the planet.
Had Don Lee today.
Though the options are minimal I love how it tastes.
Wish the internet connection was faster though, my computer is hating this ethernet thing.
But..the wireless isn't working so oh well.
Videos of my trip are here:
http://www.youtube.com/user/37thBlitz
I'm no movie star that's for sure.
I posted one a little while ago and it's still not showing up...I might have to redo it.
Tired it was an interesting day.
Spent time at the clinica a lot has changed!
Miss my boyfriend love.<3
And I like sweets:
Please give me sweets.
Blog more later.
Humidity hates my hair.
じゃね〜