I think I might do something drastic to distance myself from this life. I am ill.
I can no longer think straight and I need out.
I need peace.
I just don't know if I can do this alone.
I don't know who to trust.
I can't include my family. Not till it's done.
He can't know. I have destroyed his faith in me.
But where is the trust I had in him?
I am a shell of who I used to be.
As Adam would say, I am like Detroit.
Just set me free, please, let there be a God and set me free.
My heart aches, I need relief. I need out.
Whatever it takes.
I may not survive.